Right now it’s 1:30 am and I’m wide awake because I have no one to put me to sleep! I am dying for a discrete love affair. I’m very open about sex; however, my love life has been an open discussion and quite stressful. I need a private uncomplicated romance right now more than ever just to relax and rejuvenate me. I want a secret passionate encounter. Something like, we meet in a beautiful high rise hotel from time to time and we leave our inhibitions at the door. And, there isn’t a lot of boring chit chat or ridiculous interrogations; Just constant moaning. A woman needs affection and peace.  The touch and caress of a man is motivation for me, it gives me something to look forward to after a long work week. I need to feel his naked body on top of mine and his hands and mouth all over me. A 69 position is mandatory! The taste of the right man is intoxicating and required! I have to ride a man every now and then to get some of my aggression out. It’s a necessity for me to experience mind blowing orgasms. Just a 100%drama and stress free man who fucks the shit out of me!

I want it to be just between him and me. I like secret dirty text messages during the day; it makes me smile. I want spontaneous lunchtime meetings for a quick sexual connection. There has to be mystery between us. I don’t need to know everything going on in his life or I don’t desire to meet his friends. The friendship will be better if kept easy and simple but filled with passion.

 He’ll text me with the time and place; and he’ll request things like the outfit he wants me to wear or the game we are playing. Like he’ll meet me in a dark Miami club and he’ll insist I wear a short dress with no underwear. His instructions will be for me to go out on the crowded dance floor and wait for him. He will sneak up from behind in the darkness; grab me around the waist while his two fingers enter me from behind. And as we sway to the loud music, I climax hard and unnoticed! Or, we’ll meet in a restaurant during  lunch. I’ll sit at the counter, giving no eye contact like I don’t know him. I’ll get up and go to the bathroom and he’ll follow me in. He’ll get down on his knees in the bathroom stall, take off my panties, bend me over the sink, and fuck me. Maybe, a matinee movie where we’ll take oral sex turns and then I’ll ride him backwards. The possibilities are endless.

During the day, I’ll be sitting at my desk daydreaming of what’s to come. The things he does to me will cause flashbacks at the most inappropriate times like during business meetings. When I have my weekly dinner with Jonathan or my late night conversation with Janet, I’ll anxiously spill all the nasty details. I know they won’t tell. They appreciate a freaky saga!

On those nights we don’t meet, he might call while I lie in the middle of my bed, telling me to pretend my hands are his. His voice whispers in my ear dirty thoughts as I pleasure myself; giving me a reason to relax and fall asleep. Each day I’ll spend anticipating the next invitation.

My Secret Lover

I want to feel again

I want to crave and imagine every time I whisper your name

I want each hour of my life to be dedicated to thoughts of you

I see it so vividly…

As the dawn breaks,you awaken to us making love

the straddle and glide of my body taking all of  you

Or,

The softness of my lips kissing your thighs as you open  your eyes

and no one knows

During the day when we’re apart

I anticipate your call

I find my hiding place

My hands are yours

without touching

we make love

and no one knows

As the sun rests behind the horizon,

I receive your message and direction.

I am rushing just to give myself to you

I turn the key and you’re there waiting

Soon I’m laying under you

My legs open to your command

The breeze of the ocean fills the room

The candles flicker

Intensely

We make love

I close my eyes to peace

Finally

That is us….

Perfectly,

No one knows

Them Country Boys

Lately,

I’ve been dreaming about

them days  he use to come by

in his old ford pick up with them huge tires

I just sat there on the porch eatin peaches

barefoot

in cutoff shorts

smilin

cause I knew he was gonna ask me to take a drive

and of course I say yes

He would turn the radio to one of them old country stations

and pull me close to’em.

One hand on the wheel

and one in my shorts

I just close my eyes

and let’em do what he wanted

kinda liked it.

Then he would take his wet hand outta my shorts fast like

and then unzip his pants

He was hard as ah rock

He would then grab me by the hair and force my face down into his lap

I enjoyed my mouth bein fulla him

Soon he would turn off the road like he  always did

stop the truck and

pull me up by the hair

and made me give him the longest kiss.

We’d head down by Acworth lake

and  lay on the blanket in the tall grass drinkin homemade wine.

I would just glare up at the stars

drunk and naked

his head between my legs

his tongue use to get me so wet

My heart beatin so fast

I felt the southern breeze all over my body.

He’d climbed on top of me

and push so far in

I thought I could feel’em in my throat

I just moan and digg my nails into his back.I begged him not to stop

I  would wrap my shaking legs round his waist  and he kissed me so passionate like.

I would orgasm and climax so hard.

It was the best thing closed to heaven I’d imagine.

We’d lay on that blanket for hours

maken love

He was so simple and country

like the south

I was so happy and peaceful

then when I was with’em

Those were some of the best days of my life

I will admit during sex I’m loud as hell. Especially when I’m on my back and my legs are close to my  ears. When a man is drilling as deep as he can go, how can you keep from screaming?  I love moaning loud, I think it intensifies the sex. Now it’s not annoying screeching, its sounds of encouragement to motivate him to continue and go deeper.

If I’m making love to a man who turns me on and he is hitting my spots, I make the most passionate thunderous intense sounds; that shit gets really serious! I’ve notice that the men go crazy for it! The more I moan, the harder and stronger they become. I mix sexy phrases in with moaning like “fuck me!” “Yeah fuck that pussy!” Works like a charm.  It makes them want to come back for more! Now the next phrase I only use if I have major feelings, “This is your pussy! Fuck your pussy!” I recommend not saying that to the wrong man! He might want to kill your ass if he finds out it’s not true!

I remember when a lover and I were in the shower making love. I will say he was heavily endowed because he had me in the air, with my legs wrapped around his waist, and he was going deep. I was so loud, I think I broke into song!  An  acappella Opera!

My favorite part is when he talks dirty! It really gets me freaky. O my goodness I’ll scream so loud, I’ll awake  the heavens. The neighbor’s ears don’t stand a chance! In fact, I’ve had a few knock on my door! I just apologize “I’m sorry I was fucking and it got out of control!”

There‘s power in sexual communication. I like for a man to feel accomplished if he makes me achieve a supreme orgasm.

The Influence of Sound

Invade me

Aggressively push through me

Extend boldly

Firm and rigid

Forcing your way

Right to the heart of me

And in return

I promise

I will serenade you with

Moans and sighs

Elevating so loudly

That they influence the persistence and strength of your strokes

Your endurance and method deserves praise my love

And I  will awaken the heavens with screams of your name.

Your instrument conducts harmony from my lips as it engorges within my throat

I am yours

You are the muse inspiring my song

Seduced by your movement in rhythm

I’m Dangerously in love

Now that it’s September, it’s time to prepare for another frosty winter. This is the perfect opportunity to find a fall semester cutie to keep you warm during the upcoming icy months. Who wants to be all alone in the cold weather when you could have someone to keep you hot and fiery on those long frigid nights?

Thinking back to past winters, I can’t help but to remember that night last January, when I was feeling chilly and lonely, a friend extended an invitation to keep me warm and safe from the nasty cold. Of course I accepted the invite. Feeling so sexy and freaky from the late night fantasies we shared over the phone, I decided to put on something special for the long cold drive down to Aventura. I reached under my bed and pulled out my platform high heel, thigh-high, black, and leather boots. Then, I went to the closet for my sexiest underwear, a beautiful pair of white thong panties and matching bra. So I got all oiled and perfumed up, put on my lacy outfit, my black thigh high boots, and my winter coat. The perfect ensemble for private dinners, don’t you think?

Finally, I arrived to the beautiful high rise on the beach wearing nothing but panties, boots and an over coat. No, this wasn’t something I’ve done before. But, this was the time in my life to be brave and try something exciting and new. That’s what the move to South Florida was all about. I got on the elevator wondering what would happen once I opened my coat. Did it turn him on when he thought about me driving with barely anything on? This had to be the longest elevator ride to the 3^rd floor. My heart was beating so fast! I was anxious to see his response.

He opened the door, and invited me in. He asked if he could take my coat and I said sure please do. The look on his face when the coat hit the ground. Priceless! I’m sure ya’ll know what happened next, I was chased around the dining room table. “I thought we are about to eat,I said.” He was like, ” Yeah! I’m about to!” The night ended with me naked on the dining room table, my bra and panties ripped and thrown on the floor. Fortunately, my boots weren’t harmed; he made me keep them on! He ate well that night! A feast fit for a king!

WHITE PANTIES PART 1

For some reason tonight
out of all nights,
I wore panties
Just not any of my blah underwear
I reached deep back into my closet draw
and found my sexiest pair

By dawn
After dinner and dancing
he had me alone
I had a plan
of how
To play hard to get with this man
I vowed nothing would happen
and I would go home

However,

As we embraced
with our friendly goodbye
I experienced the seduction of his arms around my waist
his hands caressing my thighs
then moving slowing up from behind
Amazed by what he discovered
That for first time tonight
out of all nights
he couldn’t believe
he felt the silky material of panties on his lover

with a lustful stare on his face
he demanded you can’t leave .There would be no way
you never wear them
Anxiously

I have to see them so now you must stay
He lifts up my dress
then forcing my hands
inside his pants
his lips tenderly sucking my breast

He leads me to the bed
tells me to sit down on the edge
tilt back my head and spread my legs
as he kneels in front of me
How sugary and tasty
beautiful and lacy
against your dark skin

he whispers
Before he begins
His fingers stretches the lace and then slowly slips in
His tongue flickers melting my white panties
like cotton candy in his mouth
He insists the sensation is just as strong even if I left them on.

Soaked, my lips peak through and I feel the warmth of his breath
His tongue whips
like flashes of fire
melting the fabric
His finger tips strike hard and quick
from front to back
He knows when he eats in combination
that I climax without hesitation
Getting me
dripping wet and motivated
for hours of long stoke penetration

I didn’t expect me wearing a thong
would be a temptation
and turn him on
It was unexpected and unpredicted
I have to admit
the orgasm is more profound
when ever he goes down
than a lonely night of battery operated
masturbation
But
I never thought I could cum(and now I’m sprung)
by pussy eaten with cloth between my clit and his licks

Freak

Understand that I love you
I am not ashamed of me
of what I’ve become
because of you

Why should I be?
There’s no hesitation in what I do
No explanations or reasons
I found what others are too afraid to admit they are searching for
They would never confess it
but I declare it proudly
I’m a freak

I dedicated myself to you
with no uncertainties
I wanted to fall in love and you make me feel this way
There’s no one else that could have awakened this side of me
Anything you ask, I’ll try it
That’s my pledge of loyalty
I’m so committed to you and
your needs
I don’t mind letting the world know
that you have created all that’s in me
Let them talk
Let them criticize
as long as I am the perfect lover in your eyes
They might call it scandalous
Indecent
The things you make me do
As long as you desire
the uninhibited will continue
I’ve heard their voices quietly
ridiculing
questioning
me as a lady
But I don’t need a defense
I know who I am
and I am at peace with it
I’m who they wish they could be

You constantly say
how much you like it and
How it turns you on
Don’t stop you request
Let this never end
you as my freak

I am obsessed
My body and mind I no longer own
and neither do I care to
I can’t get enough
I want more
I’m addicted
strung out
Since you
My life has completely changed
My sexuality has taken control
It has transformed my presents
The way I carry myself
my appearance
The way I move
The way I speak
Even given me a new name
You have penetrated my core
And I’ll never be the same
So take my hand
and I will follow you anywhere
I can’t wait to go deeper
You are the supreme elevation
essential to my existence

So ask me my lover
That’s all it takes
I wear you so proudly
for the rest of my life
I’m willing
Dedicated
Devoted
To be your  Freak

The Second Ritual

Their eyes watch me as I’m

chained and constrained

They linger in anticipation

for you champion

to open me up and expose me

To tame the beautiful beast who runs wild between my thighs

She knows no boundaries

She has no owner

She wanders free

horrible and iniquitous

devouring any man that she chooses

The legend of the feline

whispers from city to city

The pussy purrs during the night after

she’s had her fill of flesh and shaft

The trap was set

You’re a master of temptation

leading me right into your arms

I welcome the challenge

A worthy adversary to the pussy

She is in attack mode

ready to swallow you whole

The drum beats

The fire breathes

You stand erect and fearless

They stare full of lust

starved

waiting for you to take the first taste

and soon they’ll follow

I’m spread wide open

They chant and beg

Do it hunter

Fuck her

Strike that pussy with a mighty

blow…

She needs to be trained

The sacared dance has begin

The beast screams in pleasure and rage

as you stab and pierce her heart

It will never recover from such vital wounds

Your wrath is like no other

It beats the walls and taps the G

I reach out for help

I cry and moan

but they sing of satisfaction

It’s the ceremony of the full moon

and I’m the sacrifice of sex and passion

I lay blindfold and bond

as the clock strikes 12

Your hand around my neck ready to

apply the collar and leash

Powerless to your domination

I submit myself to your rule

I am forever yours

History will remember your name

He who sexually conquered the wildest creature that

roamed these lands

A victory well deserved…..

I’m a logical person not an emotional one.If I meet a guy and we both mutually agree we are sexually attracted to one  another and just want to hook up every once and awhile, then I am going to adhere to that agreement. I treat people based on what they  tell me.

If we are not dating and I see you in public, I will speak and keep it moving!  Because, you said you didn’t want to date me and I was cool with it, I’m not going to pursue anything else. Or, neither will I have negative feelings towards you.  I won’t think about it for a second or allow myself to love you. I will talk to other men around you and party like we are not together. Because guess what? We’re not! That shouldn’t make anyone angry or upset. We don’t have that kind of friendship!

If I sense for a minute that it’s a game that you are initiating to screw with my emotions, then game on! We will play and play. You honestly never wanted someone to just sleep with or you didn’t expect me to not catch feelings.  Sounds as if someone is stuck on his or herself!

You have so many people who say they can handle “just hooking up” but are lying to themselves. They are the first ones who start claiming territory and talking shit! Don’t continue to sleep with a person and be disrespectful towards them because they are not falling for you. That’s childish!

If you do catch feelings for a person, tell them. Be up front and honest. Don’t initiate any game if you can’t handle losing.  It’s stupid!

I’ve met so many men and women who do this dumb shit and get angry. What’s up with people being fascinated with jealousy? Does that make you feel good to know someone is jealous over you?  To me it’s exhausting and petty. Also, if a person you’re just sleeping with seems to be ok with it, why would you start wondering why they have not fallen for you? Maybe it’s because there are some people out there who are logical more than emotional. And they believe in whatever arrangement you have discussed! That’s me! You said friends then that’s what we are. Don’t try to make me seem like an emotional sap because that’s not me. I don’t lead with my heart!

Why would you want someone to fall for you, but then don’t want to be with them? Makes no sense to me! Is it so you can have bragging rights? Why would you intentionally try to make someone love you, to break their hearts? That’s fucked up and wrong. Oooh let me sense that and I will draw up a game plan so quick to bring you down!

I have been called mean, but no! I just believe in people receiving what they give.

If I really want to be with a person, I tell them! No games! If I don’t tell you I want to be with you seriously, I don’t !

I agree to friends with benefits and never default the arrangement. I mean what I say and say what I mean. I find that to be true maturity. If I’m sleeping with someone who doesn’t want to hang with me in public, then I will treat him the same way. He shouldn’t expect me to cling to him or get jealous. I mean who the hell does he think he is? I notice that people, want to treat me any kind of way but when I reverse it, they get angry. Lately, it’s both men and women who have been trying my patience. People are very selfish and all about them. If they can’t have their way, then it’s a problem.

If I catch feelings at any point for someone I’m just sleeping with, they will know. I won’t hold back and then get mad when it doesn’t go my way. Life it too short for bullshit!

The 1st Encounter

First,

You tell him all the things he wants to hear

You whisper in his ear

How badly you want him to come over

and

How good you are

You confess how wild he makes you

Explaining detail by detail

Making sure he is expecting a freak just for him

Then when he arrives

You play timid

Scared and shy

Let him be in full control, making the initial move

Make this your first and second encounter

Now he is disappointed, thinking your all talk

He just thinks of you as just a lil girl who is a last resort “Bootycall”

Things are going according to plan.

You wait patiently

Silently

Planning his defeat

The third encounter

His guard is down

His expectations are low

Perfect..

A Trojan horse,

You strategize an intelligent attack

Fucking and sucking his brains out

Pornographically

Using every technique of a “freak” remembering everything he told you he likes

You shockingly blow his mind

Surprised, he has no counter defense

No war blue prints

No idea of what’s to “cum”

The 4th and 5th time, as soon as he  opens the door , you jump him and take the control

Captured

He is now a prisoner of war

fully surrendered

You own his emotions

his nose is wide open

He openly confesses that it was

You that lured him in

It was your  pussy that whooped him.

He is now all yours

Insanely in love

Conquered

Defeated

This is the art of war