I was His to Have via 2005

So deceived by the attraction of night
The dim lights and heavy sounds
The rhythm & blues
The constant laughter
Contagious and deluded
All unrealistic and deceptive
We play amongst the darkness
and struggle to resist its magnetism
We are awestruck with glimmering eyes by the extravagance
Dancing to its song
that’s when I laid eyes on him
It was like an eclipse
The sun darkened and worlds collided
I was swept away into this infinitely obscure universe.
Soon the space moved in slow motion
No longer crowded
It became a two person dance with
A slow and steady heart beat
And an exhale

My intentions were exact
The intent was to entice him
Objectives of a brief encounter outlined
The agenda
I wanted to give him a moment of paradise
To seize him into a sexual rapture
For a time
He would have been mine
I wanted him to taste the sweetness of my nectar
The taste penetrating his lips
The excess captured by his tongue
Savoring every drop
How he would have enjoyed
The ride
He would have sailed the seas
Of my divine waters
Deep and soft like the waves were customized and tailored for a perfect fit

The hours filled with orgasmic climaxes that would have reached a Tantric leveL and prolonged for nights
Days filled with irrepressible urges to return to my side for another encounter of firm strokes and midnight sweats
Changing scenes and concepts
Improvising and Inventing
His fingertips thrusting
My legs wrapped tightly

I had such high expectations for him
I wanted to introduce him
Open him up
Make him discover his true self
I wanted to sit up him like a queen on her throne, at the pinnacle of erection
My abdomen like the sky and he like a sharp bolt of lightning with replicating aftershocks
I wanted him to cry for me
Not from misery
But from lust
I wanted to sample his tears as my hollow swallowed the most important part of him
I wanted him to know what it means to hunger
To crave
To truly experience passion
During an age of his life

But, the night with its trickery
Its deceit
Disguising itself as an ally
Masquerading in seductive attire
with its sweet words and enchanting appeal
entranced me
Dressing this lover up in confidence
Manipulating his image
From afar
He was radiant
Gifted
His strength was like armor
He wore with assurance
He was painted sexy
and I was his to have

As the sun shined,
The music ended
The darkness crept into hiding
It all disappeared
I was left with a dream
A surreal belief
He had no depth
No real understanding
He was filled with burdens
He paraded around foolishly
Disoriented and confused
A side show to the masses
His genuine view
Repulsive
Menacing
Cruel
Resentful
dull
So deceived by the attraction of night
The dim lights and heavy sounds
The rhythm & blues
The constant laughter
Contagious and deluded
All unrealistic and deceptive